OK so...for the past couple of weeks I have fought and fought with not only Josh but with myself. Last night I cried and cried and cried after I put the kids to bed. I have been wondering if I am doing the right things, if I am with the right person, and if I am a good mother to my boys and if I am a good person to those around me. I finally just had to tell God to take all of this and so I put it all in Gods hands. I woke up to Kaleb saying "good morning momma, get up cause I love you", then I went to get Logan out of bed and Kaleb and him laughed at each other and while I was taking Logan out of his bed Kaleb said "Logan loves you". Today Randy called me about some properties in West Virginia and said I think you are going to love this place. Josh just called me and said I was just taking a break and wanted to call you and tell you I miss you, I love you, and I want to be a family and be happy. My kids are taking naps right now and I felt the urge to look in my bible and everything is starting to seem much clearer. I know I have yet to make things right with some people but I believe I have to make things right with myself before I can move forward. When I started reading, the first thing I read was "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own". That message has done more for me today then I have done for myself in many years. Those who know me well, I worry about everything and I become consumed in my worries. I got the mail today and there was a letter from a place that just put everything in its place. I don't know what tomorrow will bring or even next month will bring, but I am satisfied with my decision to put things in God's hands and I now know what I am suppose to do...I am so relieved that I know now that I was never alone...He was listening!!
I Thank God that I have been blessed!! I now realize that I have been taking things for granted and I am glad he has opened my eyes.
Just thought I would share this with you...I am going to have a great day today and Pray for tomorrow to be just the same.
Girl, your right he is always there. Just take a moment of each day and tell him thank you....I go to God a lot, and I know that he is there waiting for me and everyone else, when you need him and and when you just want to talk. Take care of yourself so you can be a good mom, and wife. And everything will fall in place, by the unseen hands...Love you Tammy!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing person, wife and Mom! You yourself just have to be reminded from time to time. And if you will be still and listen God always will send words of encouragement. Love You!
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