Changes to the Changes.....

We aren't moving. After all the praying I have done and the stress I have been under, we have decided for Josh to come back and get a job here and stay close to family. Plus, the health issues my dad has been having, the renewed relationship I have with Josh's parents, the fact I don't want Logan to forget everyone, and me not wanting to put Austin and JD through such change with them being so close to us, but most of all I have thought it through and I am not ready to leave D. I know D is gone but I find myself going and visiting him when I am having a hard time, if we move so far away I feel like I would be leaving him behind. I know I don't have to explain any of this to anyone but I just want people to know where I stand with making the choice.

Confusion...

I don't understand why some people just can't give support even if they don't agree with what I do or feel like I should do. It puts me in a situation where I start questioning everything right when I get comfortable with what I think I should do. Do people not realize that not only are they going through things but I am the one who has to go through with all of this on top of moving my kids away from everything they know....It's hard enough to deal with the issues I have going on...I don't need others adding to it!!!

EXCITING!!!!!

I just bought my ticket to West Virginia....yyyaaaayyyyy!!!! I am going to go look for a house and spend some time with Josh before all the excitement of moving starts!! I am getting excited, but overwhelmed at the same time. I am going to hate the fact that I am going to be away from a lot of people I love!! Some of them I see everyday and that is going to be so hard!! I will keep my same number so I will be texting people A LOT!!!...so just deal with it....or put your phone on silent at night that way I won't bug or just be prepared to hear your phone go off a couple of times each night....and that's not including the day time......

A few changes...

Well, they changed Kaleb's appointment for his teeth for July 29th. He was sick and had a fever so I called to make sure they could do it and they put it off just to make sure. Then Logan ended up getting sick too!! Kaleb is over it and Logan almost is. I am planning a trip to West Virginia next week to go find a house. We are planning to move earlier so we can get this ball rolling. We are trying to find someone to rent our house. We haven't gotten done with the packing or little fixes here and there but if you know of anyone needing a places just let me know and I can send info!! It is a 3 bedroom, 2 bath, 1 car garage home with an alarm and all appliances, plus it has a big back yard that we have worked our tail off to try to get grass and we finally have grass now that we are leaving!!! Please spread the word out about the house...we can't leave until it is rented out!!!

I saw God today...

OK so...for the past couple of weeks I have fought and fought with not only Josh but with myself. Last night I cried and cried and cried after I put the kids to bed. I have been wondering if I am doing the right things, if I am with the right person, and if I am a good mother to my boys and if I am a good person to those around me. I finally just had to tell God to take all of this and so I put it all in Gods hands. I woke up to Kaleb saying "good morning momma, get up cause I love you", then I went to get Logan out of bed and Kaleb and him laughed at each other and while I was taking Logan out of his bed Kaleb said "Logan loves you". Today Randy called me about some properties in West Virginia and said I think you are going to love this place. Josh just called me and said I was just taking a break and wanted to call you and tell you I miss you, I love you, and I want to be a family and be happy. My kids are taking naps right now and I felt the urge to look in my bible and everything is starting to seem much clearer. I know I have yet to make things right with some people but I believe I have to make things right with myself before I can move forward. When I started reading, the first thing I read was "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own". That message has done more for me today then I have done for myself in many years. Those who know me well, I worry about everything and I become consumed in my worries. I got the mail today and there was a letter from a place that just put everything in its place. I don't know what tomorrow will bring or even next month will bring, but I am satisfied with my decision to put things in God's hands and I now know what I am suppose to do...I am so relieved that I know now that I was never alone...He was listening!!

I Thank God that I have been blessed!! I now realize that I have been taking things for granted and I am glad he has opened my eyes.

Just thought I would share this with you...I am going to have a great day today and Pray for tomorrow to be just the same.

I'm gonna throw a fit...

aaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........
it just never ends.......it is really just one of those days.......
I got to the FedEx place to send off 2 huge boxes and I have to park in the very front in the no parking zone to get these boxes out of my car and one of them weighed 73 lbs!!! A lady had the nerve to just stand there and look at me until I moved my car...so I got the 2 boxes out, put them on the sidewalk, went and parked my car while I worried about someone grabbing the boxes and taking off, I got out and took both of the boxes inside...which took 2 trips, then had to turn around and go get my kids out of the car....all which this lady just sat and watched my every move like I was carrying bombs or something....then had to go kick the boxes up to the counter cause I was holding Logan and wasn't about to put him on their floor, paid $100 to send them to West Virginia, walked out of the FedEx place and saw the lady standing over by my car, in the way of putting my kids in the car...I went around to the other side and made Kaleb crawl over to his seat and then put Logan in his seat, then had to go back around and ask the lady to move so I could buckle Kaleb in.....let me tell you....that lady almost got a fist in her face a couple of times!!! I finally shut the door and was about to get in the drivers seat when that lady asked me if I was finally done.......................ooooooooooooooooooooooooo....................let me tell you in a clean version what I told the lady.....And yes Gordon Ramsey would have been so proud of me.....I turned and looked at her and said you know the problem with people today is they think they are just way too good and way too selfish to even ask if anyone else needs a hand with anything, instead they sit and watch while someone works their butt off to get 2 boxes inside so they can send them to their husband that is clear on the other side of the US all while taking care of their 2 children, but it takes people like you to get in their way when they are trying to get the screaming kids back in the car all while you are standing in the freaking way....Thank You lady for just showing me how much better of a person I am than you....Thank You for sitting there watching my every move....and Thank You for the ugly, nasty, dirty looks....I really hope your face gets stuck like that....(and this is the good part)....now F off you ugly old cow!!!!!!

Yes....I have asked for forgiveness and yes I have calmed down ..... a little.

Today has just been one of those days and apparently I was at the end of my rope when I came across this lady!!! Things are hard enough right now for me...that lady just didn't help anything!! Anyone who reads this and knows me...This was me being nice to the witch and she is very lucky I had my kids with me cause it could have been a lot worse!!!

In these events...no child was harmed...no child heard a word....and no ugly old cow was hit right in her nose!!!

SORRY....I AM HAVING A VERY BAD DAY!!!!

A week from today...

Kaleb will have his teeth work done a week from today. I am so nervous because I don't know what to expect or how he will do being put out completely. I know little ones bounce back faster but I know he is going to think his world is about to end when he comes out of it and wakes up in pain!!! He has done really good brushing his teeth on his own and now I just have to watch him brush. Sometimes I have to take over when he is feeling lazy or when I think he didn't brush long enough. But how do you keep his teeth healthy when he eats everything under this roof?? He wakes up eating and goes to bed eating...he pretty much eats 26 hours a day!!! lol I am just concerned and nervous and scared for my little guy and I am ready for it to be over!!!

It is raining...again...

After all the rain we got around the 4th of July...it is raining once again!! I love the rain but we were suppose to bounce today. Things get kind of boring sitting inside all day but I can't take the kids anywhere cause of course....IT'S RAINING!!!!

West Virgina....here we come....

Josh took a job in West Virginia and we are moving!! I have prayed about this move over and over again and know that it will be the best thing for our family. As much as I would love to stay here in Lubbock I know that we must go try new things. We will never know what this will do for our family if we don't try. We are going to rent out our house for little while that way we always have a home to come back to if things don't work out. I plan on posting lots of pictures of the boys and showing everyone where we go and what we do while we are living in Morgantown. I just want to be able to share my adventure with everyone!!

Who I Am

My name is Tamara Garrett, but most just call me Tammy! I got married to my wonderful husband, Josh, in August 2005. We have two little boys, Kaleb and Logan. Josh and I have lived in Lubbock going on 3 years.

I love spending time with my family and traveling to different places. I just took up the hobby of decorating cakes and have found that even though it is a lot of work they are also fun to do!! I started college again and plan to become a social worker. I love being a mom and a student! I know I have a strong and loving family that is very supportive and I love them all very much...even through their flaws!!